my heart

remeber

2011-09-28T16:42:00.000+08:00

realize that if u loved some1 for 1yr, it takes around 10yrs time to forget.
but if some1 loved u/treated u special and u didn't really treasure,
as time pass by, e more u gone thru, e more u rmb him/her,
cos there's no1 else can treat u like he/she did.
thus, treat ppl good and care for e one u love.
because, u gonna be rmb FOREVER~ =]

不得不爱

2011-05-03T12:04:00.003+08:00

很多结了婚的女人都绝不允许自己的老公有外遇，
可是往往都是为了肉体上的出轨，而不是精神上的。
其实，大错特错了。
如果男人只是想找另外一个肉体上的乐趣，
那就代表他只是男人本性发了，
最多也只是被那女人的外表肉体所吸引，
他们并不动心。
可是，如果是精神上出轨，那就要小心了，
这就很有可能代表他已不爱了，会爱上别人了。
最后的逗留也只是被逼的责任。
所以，女人不能只在乎男人有没有在肉体上对不起你，
因为那并不代表他不爱你了。
而要多注意精神方面的，
因为，精神上的出轨，就代表了离开～

All my fault...

2011-04-03T14:00:00.002+08:00

Which mother fucker tells u pregnant is just an fking excuse?!
Ask him fking to be pregnant lar!
Yea, it was allllll my fault to be pregnant.,
I can't control my emotions also is my wrong!
My fault.,,,it's all womens' fault to be pregnant.,
We deserved all these, we deserved all!..
I wanted all these to be happen,
All I wan de,.
My fault, all my fault,,,mine.,,
MINE!!!~

Y u still can't just understand ...
Alright be it, let mi deserve all....

Where's my love~

2011-03-25T19:04:00.002+08:00

I miss e time when I ask u to go west, u dun dare to go east.,
I miss e time when I ask u to sit, u dun dare to stand.,
I miss that pair of lovely eyes, which I can't see anymore
I miss e time when I'm being e "bf" u were e "gf"
...., things just change after all.,
Where's my 100% stoopid idiot.,?
Where's ., my love....~

.
Even if u were like my "dog" in ppl's eyes,
But being ur wife's dog is becos u fully love/respect her and being a real man
.,
But being a dog of e other one's only making urself lose ur zun yan
And makes mi feel upset...

Cries from women

2011-03-25T11:11:00.002+08:00

A man will nv understands a woman when she's pregnant and how she feels
He'll only thinks that she's being too much, selfish or unreasonable.,
When she also could not control her emotions as before
Is this what women deserved?
So many cases I had seen
And now, I know y .,
Y a man would change their mind and attitude towards their wife or even having mistress outside
And y a woman would chose to leave in e end.,
It's not about sex or love no more
It's about understanding ....
.
.
This is a woman's life when they chose marraige and kids?
Tell mi I'm wrong... Prove mi .,
When I noe it's destiny~

Love game

2011-03-25T10:16:00.003+08:00

Life is just a game,
It's to see whether how u plays e part
...
U always say if intro mi one game I sure wins u in e end
That's becos when I started interest in e game,
I'm playing my part.
Can tell tt everytime u starts a new game and ended it so fast
Becos u sian Le,
Or can even do hack to make urself feels good,
After all throws it away..
Wells, that's just e small example of how u treat "love" this word
...
Yet, wishx just e carex more from u become so hard
Y can't u ti liang and understand e mind of a preg woman's heart
And that person is just mi...
...
I dun hate u,
I hate I love u,
Cos loving u can only cos trouble,
Or even less and lesser cares from u
...
Sigh,.~
it's all my fault,
My fault to accept ur previous love,
My fault to love u back,
My fault to ... Even carrying ur child
...
So even if one day I die,
I dun die for u,
I die for myself!~

Y am I with u

2011-03-24T10:22:00.004+08:00

The reason y I chose to be with u
Is simply becos u could love mi with all u can
No one else can do as e same way as u
But after all, u had changed.
Yes, ppl might change as they grow up,
But if being mature is just by loving less or lesser
So being in love is immature?
Den I would rather stay immature with u for e rest of my life
..,
And so, I can't find e fully love from u anymore as before
.,
The reason y I fell in love with u is just simply becos
U can love mi truly and silly,
Now, i can't find e reason to carry on my love for u
,.
U're no longer my "idiot"
.
.
I'll only love e stoopid idiot of mine,
So there isn't any now,
Where's my love,
It's gone, and it's gonna gone forever~

It's all about my mind

2011-03-23T08:18:00.004+08:00

Who doesn't wants their husband to be rich?
I do .
I no need him to be rich,
Cos when u're rich,
Meaning u have to put alot alot times and stress on it
And so, where's e love and cares for e family?
Thus, if let mi choose from rich and time for e love ones,
What would I choose ? :)
And of cos, I also dun wish to see him slacking at home, doing nth
And of cos, no one wants their husband to be useless or poor
So by wanting a normal stable pay and job from him is it so hard?
Not say I'm not working or I gonna Xiang Shou my TaiTai life ,
I'm working at e same time supporting this little family with u,
Isn't it very hard? :)
U have stress and pressure , so do I? :)
.....
Had e parents meeting e night before,
So what they were saying was all about our childish or immature thinking
So if by thinking mature is by losing e "love" in between one another,
So I would like to stay e way they thinks that immature thinking
Which is only "my thinking"
Yes, I'm stubborn,just as e way I born,
I just wan to maintain my "love" and not by doing sth fishy to lose it all
So are they showing e good examples??
One side's talking about a divorce after yrs of "can't stand each others"
And got their own so called "gf/bf"
Oh come on, so u think by doing all these or being a fake "happy family" in front of ur child she'll feel happy?
The other side leh? No need to talk about it no more.
So, this is to be mature and change broken hearts or broken family in e future?
Wells, I believe we're nt e only ones whom have family problems
The ppl around us? All over e world? ...
I had seen too much. ..
So why would I be another one of this.,
Yes life is CanKu and XianShi de,
If being XianShi can only buy back money, houses, car, or anything u wan to buy
But can it buy back love???
Love's gone means gone, it wun come back and find u
So why don't we treasure and try to keep it with us in e 1st place?
Not by doing all "shitx" to lose it all???
....
If I wan I rich future or "rich family" ,
I won't chose to be with u in e 1st place:)
.,
Just imagine in e future everynight I'm waiting with our kids
Just for ur return for a dinner with us,
It would become so hard, cos u wun have the time
Busying with ur job or blablabla...
In this case, y didn't I being single?
Or even being with some rich man and shaking my leg at hm doing spa.,

So last words about my mind-
I will not choose to be rich,
If being rich's gonna lose
Ur time & cares for e family
And so our love..

Mrs Tay

2011-01-20T16:10:00.001+08:00

Angela "mila" Chow
is Married to
Shawn "kazuya" Tay

and now become "Mrs Tay"

wth=.=!

2010-10-27T21:26:00.002+08:00

has realise that it's true that
ITE students can do(practical)better than poly students,
but their theory is better la of cos..
but freak~ i'm nt from poly!
so stop asking mi to do e things(office work)
which i dun even noe a single shit=.=!
and i just realise why e school wanted to change our course name
when we were graduating(from marine offshore engineering-technology=.=!)
cos we were learning e engineering stuff when e poly course was tech=.=
but we are nt even an "ass" engineer=.=!
it's like what they learnt is wat i'm doing,
wat we learnt is wat they doing=.=!!!!
wells since we were e 1st graduates from this (Y)course,
sua=.=! wa eh lun..LOL!

dun rely on any1 but urself

2010-10-19T20:53:00.001+08:00

got e below part from my colleague:

如果将本身的“幸福”，完全寄托在另一个人身上

在现实生活里，是很难获得幸福的

这应该是心态的问题，和对象是谁无关
...
“我将自己的未来交给你咯”

这句话，不管出自男或女，应该是信赖的成分多一点，而不是缺乏独立能力的依赖

过度的依赖，伴随的是失去自我

这样的幸福，很不稳定，怎谈得上“安全感”

安全感这种东西，其实主要是自己给自己的

work work work

2010-10-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

ok, i think i should post sth before this blog rotted=.=
...
well well well, OT OT OT!!!~
gg-ed, lucky i still new, so for currently, nt a must to stay
hmmm, i'm e 1st gal of my section in e 40 yrs =.=
of cos gt gals at e other departments la
we are like aliens in e company=.=V
havent start work yet ppl alr known mi , wth. LOL!
although i'm "weird" in their eyes,
and they even talk about mi as a "him"
but ok la , mostly of them are kinda nice to mix with
they say i'm e most frenly gal they seen so far=.=!
wells, as i said is they dun dare to talk to them nt they nt frenly
haha, had fun chit chats with e uni graduates and old engineers
guessing about where is my hometown become e hot topic=.=
...
so far so good, i tot office work gonna be unfamiliar and tough for mi
but ok la, now still easy, long way to go=)
.
tired everyday
sleep earli wake up before e birds=.=
healthy life style, LOL!
oyasumi~

ex=/=no more frenx

2010-09-18T00:58:00.003+08:00

wells, funny that 2 of my ex talk to mi today
complaining about their gf or life or wat so ever
they were saying, it's realli good to have mi as a good fren
cos i could gave alot of suggestions.
wells, actualli i'm just being straight,got wat say wat,
and sometimes i scold or saying things tt not nice to hear
but after some times,they will come back and thank mi=D
wells.,
it's realli good to be frenx=]
why can't just let those "ex" become good fren
no fate being tgt, no point to become enemy also right=]
we can realise e mistakes and learn e lesson
..
i'm glad tt u guys realise i'm realli good
HAHA! feeling so shameless nw=pPp

2010-09-17T03:42:00.002+08:00

since e day i met u,
wat u good at is to make mi mad,fed up,upset,disappointing
.
if u reali loved mi,
u should led mi go at that point of time, but u didnt
.
u wan mi, but u dun need mi,
touch ur heart..i'm just an object
.
u loved mi, but i loved someone else,
u just didnt wish tt someday, i belong to him
u just wan mi to be urs
no matter how hard u try,
no matter how hurt i got,
no matter how upset i was
all u wan, was just mi..
u didnt mind my heart belongs to him,
as long as u have mi by ur side,
no matter i'm unhappy or happy or not..
as ur wish..i'm with u..tt's all
.
"tt's nt love silly"-"亲爱的,那并不是爱情~"
yea, i wanted him so badly too,
until e day i gave up..
den i noe i started to realli love him..
so at e past times, wasnt love at all
.
u also could tell,, tt in e future,
our story might be an opp way...
cos i starting to fall for u,
and i put in my heart,
but u alr have mi by ur side,
so u wun care anything anymore becos i'm alr urs
.
.
放弃并不代表不喜欢,喜欢并不代表要拥有...
其实,也只是害怕失去~
.
.
u led mi believed wat love is
when love is actualli just a lie
it's nt ur fault my dear
it's becos..
"love" is just sth tt to make u feel like heaven
and den throw u heavily on e floor..
the deeper ur love is, the deeper u'll fall
"FALL in Love" ~

以前一直藏在心里的话？

2010-09-14T00:08:00.003+08:00

仔细看看你自己的心
如果你放弃不了他的话
那就紧紧抓住他
如果他不爱你的话
那就干脆一点放手
不要再想他了
只是个二选一的选择
有很难吗？

真的要将一个人从心里完全删除
那只有完全不喜欢才做的到
一旦喜欢上一个人
不管是选择放弃或是坚持
那都是由不得自己的
二选一好像很容易
但其实根本就没那么简单
一个人的心是很复杂的
我的心复杂到有好几百种
有的叫我期待
有的叫我割舍
有的叫我放弃
有的又叫我勇敢
你叫我仔细看看自己的心
但是我连我哪颗心是对的都不知道
你了解这种感觉吗

under your wings

2010-09-10T17:59:00.002+08:00

“爱无限”插曲，album not released yet
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0aQmRFmL9wY

partly of e lyrics from e drama:
...
(missing)
...
for who i was no matter what
the smile he gave me
we would never be apart
under your wings i am forever
under your open skies i soar
because your love for me was everything
i needed to be strong
i'm always home
under your wings
under your wings i am forever
under your open skies i soar
because your love for me is everything
i need now to be strong
i'm always home
i'm always home
i'm always home~

we belongs to one anothers=]

2010-09-10T01:32:00.003+08:00

idiot:
"i'll still ended up with u de la dun worry"
after this time u came over,
i felt u're important to mi..
just like few weeks back when i was day dreaming
about who to save 1st if it's e end time,
also meaning who i would like to be with for e eternal life
i chose u mahx=] cos onli u can treats mi like this true
love mi like this crazy, i'll be very super uber 幸福=]
being loved by u is e happiest thing of my life
we gt quarrel, we gt argue, we gt alot issues to solve
but we're just 命中注定~
.
.
and after all i agree to marry u and confirmed e date
becos i realize myself have alr fallen for u
.
i promised u i wun leave u unless e person was him
i promised i wun marry u until e day he's no longer in my heart
,
he was just an imagination, i had woke up from tt "dream"
i realise i was so wrong alr.
.
i love u dadar
2011-1-19 will be e date, i totally belongx to u=]
.
i dun wan to "miss" u anymore
cos i dun wish to lose u
i gonna be mine! forever~

sweet sweet ~

2010-08-17T01:06:00.001+08:00

today chinese V-day =.=!
when buy boots and shopping..blablabla
did my nails..
permanent meti=D last more than 1 month^^
suit mi this kinda always pluck nails de gal=.=!
den went a pub...boss singaporean sio O_O
haha..nice chats~

friday e 13th

2010-08-13T03:02:00.001+08:00

as usual, nth big happen today
every year is e day before this day is black
..
today earli in e morning daddy lobang mi go out
meet his "sachiko" for lunch at town area
den walk walk shop shop
end up we decide to go k box since weather too hot
and can spend 3 hours waiting for dad..idea~=.=V
haha, e stuffs there see us like special also (Y)
attitude uber good, much better than i used to go
still ask mi fill e comment letter, LOL!
just nice, i wrote it when we were singing=p
den daddy came fetch us go eat huo guo
god damn jap beef 118RMB and 288RMB, wth D=
den hor,, we start to talk, about mum and stuff
from 6pm eat till 11pm=.=! dinner cum supper..LOL!
den reach home everything normal, nth happen
sleep~

e day before friday e 13th

2010-08-12T23:04:00.001+08:00

talked to dad ytd when on e way back about his r/s with mum
seems like they realli did being "tgt" for e sick of mi
since when i was 5...good game
and so he say now i grow up le,
if she wants a divorce or watever..up to her
wells..i said just let her be bahx
being unreasonable and more and more stubborn and strange recently
i got e feeling sooner or later it would happen
...
yup, today she so call finally open her mouth "talk" to mi
e 1st was about her fren de son de r/s with my fren
WTF?!! get e fk out of them..
why can't u parents leave us alone?
their love journey havent even get ready kn broke by u all
wat e hell right..
and if care about how good my fren's personality jiu sua
wat she was asking is about her family back ground
and wat her parents doing...WHAT?!!!
this is ridiculous! !
wat's e matter with u all, we are not kids anymore
... wells here we go e "war"
talk till my sis side..
i said out all was on my mind
e words which i didn't wish to let her hear
cos i was afraid to hurt her, never e less she still my mum right
but she forced mi to tt point..i'm done
yup, ended up she did mention a "divorce"
ya la ya la wan divorce jiu divorce la
separate also good for each others
...
and some idiot made mi fking angry also
why can't u just learn e lessons when each and everytime we quarrel
ya issue might be small, but plus tgt u are making e similar mistakes
i got enough..
i realli got tired of EVERYTHING

today wat date ah?LOL!

2010-08-12T01:44:00.002+08:00

Daddy came home earli from work
just to fetch mi go hospital see eyes=.=V
i ren-ed so long cos dun wan to go see doctor=/
but boh bian=.= still have to D=
so sad~LOL!
reach there onli let doc see onli ask mi go eye injection=.=
gg-ed...but e doc like a pretty sio =X nurse also=pPp
wa biang! e injection FKING PAIN sio!!！＠＃＄％＆＊ wuwuwuwuw T_T
i tot my eye bleed-ed D= or blinded=.=!
den after e so call "small surgery" go back let doc check again
i ask her whether is it becos of contact lens infection
she say partly onli,
guess wat=.= e main reason shocked mi
i tot i hear wrongly also=.= lucky dad nv hear clearly
she said is becos i cried too much since.....？ermmm=.= wth
aya fk care it=.= i onli noe it's painful T_T

so girls, wan cry cry but dun cry everyday so hard ok
if nt like mila like tt gone case alr=.=\/
lala~

.
lol! i dun even noe today wat date=.=!Zzz
time ah time, can pls fly pls~=(

"a little pain" in chinese=.=!

2010-07-08T03:13:00.001+08:00

travel to the moon
你沉睡著梦渐行渐远谁也看不见
闪烁的光
任我掌控

为了变得更坚强
那遗忘的笑容
只要是两个人一起努力
必定能再展露

※愿你知道
i'm here waiting for you
即使我们身处不同的未来
i'm here waiting for you
一直呼喊著
必定可以找到
那连系彼此心意的命运之线
并将我从沉睡中唤醒
no need? to cry

travel in silence
仿佛伸手便能触及
你却如此遥远
原来只是回忆中的残影

听见你的声音
只要闭上双眼
就连微弱的苦楚
也令人爱怜

愿你看见
i'm here waiting for you
即使身陷风中独自迷茫
i'm here waiting for you
我的心
永远向你敞开双臂
直至曾经的你
回首的那天
no need? to cry

wide open ears
disarm the dream tickler
in the constant moment
let the blood flow
through all the spaces
of the universe

愿你知道
i'm here waiting for you
即使我们身处不同的未来
i'm here waiting for you
一直呼喊著
必定可以找到
那连系彼此心意的命运之线
并将我从沉睡中唤醒
no need? to cry

lonely lonely lonely endless

$=/=rich

2010-06-25T01:04:00.003+08:00

let's talk about e "ah xia kia"
born in a rich family,
nv had any hardships since young
wan wat got wat,
wan money take from parents
so wat if u gt money?so u think u are rich??
actualli u are as poor as a beggar
.
parents wanting thier child to be e No.1
give this lesson tt tuition since kindergarten
all they wan to see is a success person in e future
but actualli they are just spoiling thier child
when love becomes over dote, everything's too late
.
i admit i ate silver spoon when i was young
but i had realise i have to be myself
they give mi a life but i have to live on my own way
,
yea if i wanted something and they just buy for mi
of cos i will be happy, but tt "happy" last forever??
we dun have e childhood as e normal family
now i think back,
how i wish i could ever be in a common home
.
wells, it's nv too late to wake up ur mind
start everything from zero
.
i just can't bear to see those guys whom
showing off how rich they are,can have alot things
which normal ppl can't affort.
"it's not about e guitar, it's about e guitarist"(by my fiance)
ya so wat if u gt all e branded stuff
and nowadays ppl says:
if u're holding a fake LV bag, ppl might tot it's real,
if u're holding a real one,ppl maybe still will think whehter it's fake
LOL! for wat keep wasting money on such lame shit=.=!
talk aboout quality, last time e chiong one seiously scary,easy2spoil
but now,look at e fake one, sometimes even better=.=!
(eg: Gucci hp accesorries, e real one wear long liao will qi mao
but e chiong one wun-.-)
maybe is becos i dun siao brands tt's why i dunno e feel
but even if i realli realli like a brand's stuff
save up using my own hardwork money to buy 1 still ok mahx
or i could just do is-"daddy~~ i like e blablabla and bla"
den i will get it? happy meh??
.
i ate silver spoon grown up still alright
look at my cousin who ate golden spoon de,
parents busy about their own business,
so wat if they earning million US dollars every year
"throw" their child to grand parents since young
my mum was a housewife so she was still free to look after her
sometimes we wasnt tt free, she was all alone
all she do was just study, and study
give her a book she can sit there for e whole day
she dun need any luxury, she wun ask for anything else
i nv realli seen a real smile or laughter from her before
no one cares about her feeling, no one noes wat's one her mind
but at least, all she noe is just study
and goal-ing toward being a lawyer in e future.
her parent didnt give her much money
her spending is much lesser than mine since young till now
eventhough she wasnt happy cos her parents always can't be with her
but as e life journey she used to it, and being independence
she didnt have happiness, but she got a great future=]
(all e best to her)
.
anyway, back to e point,
to those childe who still shaking leg
and being a black sheep as a 败家子
i just wish u can wake up asap
ur money is from ur parents, not urs
from a rich family doesnt means u're rich
whether u happy or not
above is my thoughtx

[[straight to e point-tt's mila;)]]

Tues

2010-06-09T02:12:00.003+08:00

i dun understand y some ppl just wun learn from e mistakes
why can't they just grow up?
those xmm xdd puppy love lub here lub there nvm
adualt alr still behave like a kid
tsk tsk~
saying how innocent how poor thing u were
from keep changing partner
fked more than 5 gals within a short period of time
and saying wanna be serious in r/s?
lol xmm also wun believe
.
.

when u treat them good, with sincere,
they wun see cos they dun have eyes
u help them with big problems
even if they thank u but forget all e way asap
cos they gt no lan pa,
u could just dun bother and let them dead..
u scold them wan to wake them up,
they dun give a fk or even bites u
cos they are worse than a loyal dog
.
.
dun ever step onto my toe
human got patience
i had reached my limit
so tt's it
=)

love?

2010-06-08T00:38:00.005+08:00

love，99% all fake
only 1%，which is real de
is pain，
pain is real and true
but the funny thing is,
u wun find any cuts on ur body,
u wun bleed,
but this kinda pain,
would bite u deeply and wun let go
till, bite ur heart out
u den will break away from e pain
dun have heart, u wun pain

再忍一下，
我就不痛了
.
.
.
in e love game,
only gt 2 kind of person
one side is a fool(dumb)
one side is a faker(liar)
true <3 is just like e chips
who use true heart 1st,
is e dumb
,
if wanna be e winner of e love game
e onli way is be a super swindler
not onli to bluff others,
but to bluff urself too...

去他妈de爱情_|_=.=
LOL!

Monday morning

2010-06-07T03:53:00.002+08:00

since everyone's wondering why
and wat on earth i'm thinking
and wat's on my mind
i gonna talk about it now
.

ya, i noe to u iz realli unfair
and i'm being selfish,
but e main reason is becos i swore to myself
,that he would be e last1 ever...
and tt's why,
i'm being with u,.
simply becos u can love mi with all u can
doing watever things that i want to
...
he's stoopid cos he nv treasure some1 who love him with all her<3 truly,
i dun wan to be like him cos i dun wish to lost some1 like tt
and end up regreting about it
why not just keep it now
.
ever since i knew tt mi and him is freaking impossible,
and tt's why i tgt with u
i could forget him den be with u,
but i didnt...
cos i just dun wish to lost someone like u
i noe once i missed it, it will be gone forever
it seems very very bad, like i'm using u to forget him,
but i'm not doing tt,
i can't give u a promise when i can forget about him
i can't promise u when i can have u as e onli one in my heart
but i can promise u tt i wun regret for being with u
.
everytime we quarrel or argue over thingys
or i get mad over u,.
we all noe e reason behind
just tt u nv ask, i nv say..
but u noe tt i will tell u anyway
cos tt's e way i am
.
of cos i hope u can change to a better one
more mature...better in everything
but the only thing that i dun wish to happen is
dun ever change ur heart.
tt's all i wan now
and tt's enough..
.

i still rmb u did told mi,
u wun let me go even if i found someone else
unless, e person is him
yup,.we all noe tt this wun be happening
so e same to mine,
that wun happen too
=)
=))
=)))
i told mi "smile"
so do u=]

random-fashion?

2010-06-03T17:18:00.002+08:00

wat is realli call fashion?
keep following e "流行"?
i got no idea wat so nice about lady gaga,wonder girls
or even e korean stuffs nowadays
everyone's talking about korea things
korea hot gals?
just that e legs are longer or the face sweeter?
all fakers=.=!Zzz
japan:化妆美女
korea:整容美女
so ppl are just loving e "mask"
the packing of e present?
.
nowadays, wat do u find in e shopping mall?
those shoes, cloth, dress, specs, blablabla
watever u can find on e "stars" body
u can always find it on e streets=.=!
and tt's why i hate shopping nowadays
i can't find anything tt i like
even if i found sth tt i like even yrs back
u are seeing huge numbers of gals wearing=.=Zzz
sian 1/2
lolz!!!
or u found sth which "流行-ed" few yrs back
yea it would be cheaper of cos,
and u bought it wear on e street simply becos u love it
end up ppl saying u old fashion=.=!
.
come on,
why can't we ppl just wear or do e things we like
not follow e so called "fashion"
.
ppl who keep following e "流行“ will nv be "e one",
can onli be e "copy catx"..
.
so u think u very cool huh?~
-_____________-||
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[this post above was just my personal thoughts=D
nth/no1 to be aimed at;)
i'm just being random=D]

thurs

2010-06-03T17:07:00.002+08:00

things just doesnt goes well as e way we wanted
i'm so lost
and there's nth i can do right now
e government always going against mi
isnt it realli a mistake for being there?
everything's too late now
i just have to keep going
keep trying and trying just to get back there
and so i can move on and on
.
life was so healthy when i just gt here
night before 12 sleep morning 9am wake up
after e bad news was out,
couldnt fall asleep so earli anymore
lying on e bed eyes open bigbig
even close my eyes,
my brain just can't stop thinking and thinking
all e memories flash back
my eyes were always teary
wat can i do,
wat's next
wat's gonna be happen
where i belongx to
i realli dunno
God noes, but y is He always going against mi
why~

final decision

2010-05-27T02:50:00.003+08:00

i'm tired of trying
sick of loving
...
i'm totally strengthles
..
so i decided to stop
and look at e person who love mi e most
there's no one like u
willing to do watever things for mi
loving mi with all ur <3
..
no one's perfect
no love's 4eva
but yet i found someone who love mi e most
being loved is much better than loving someone
yup...
i'm very 幸福 now=]
and we're praying to have a family soon=]

dar: tks for ur love,
ilu2~

tuesday(bored)

2010-05-18T14:59:00.002+08:00

it's nt tt we can't,
it's see whether u wan or nt,.
no one can control ur emotion,
it's onli depends on urself~

true frenx are-
whenever u need help they'll try their best 2help u even they can't,..
normal frenx are-
go out tgt, have fun tgt whenever they/u feelx bored,
no trouble no betray no nth,..
fake frenx are-
making use of u, trying to betray u, doing things behind u....

wells, i dun expect there's much true frenx
cos there's nt much left in this world,
so normal frenx?who are they?~

I always dun share my feelings/xin shi out
not because i dun trust anyone,
is becos sometimes i ask myself,
wat if i say out,
to bluff myself feel better?
problem'll solve??thingy'll change???
tt's e reason why i always keep it to myself,
nt tt i dun wish to tell,
is there's no need to=]

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[[didnt want to *miss* u, but yet i *missed* u]]

thurs

2010-05-13T19:31:00.002+08:00

i noe wat i doing
i noe wat i wan
so i wun care how ppl thinks is their problem
and i can tell who's realli caring and who's kpo-ing
i always nv say not means i dunno
yes i did keep sth to myself somehow
but there's always a reason behind
becos.....
wat u see tt is it,
dun ever make it complicated
yet it's actualli very simple "mu di"=]
maybe no one will noe my heart
maybe someone would have guessed wat i doing
just let it be
silent speaks gold=]
everything happens for reason, simple is tt=]
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[[=happy就好=]]

没那么简单

2010-04-22T22:37:00.002+08:00

mum flying on Sun
and she going fren house stay tml
yup, i have to learn how to live alone
and fully be an adult now..
if everything success, start work on 3rd of May
i hope everything gonna be fine
currently i'm feeling e pressure alr
i noe it gonna be freaking tough & stress

一个人的生活真的不容易
事情不再会是那么的简单
如果将会是两个人来承担
我希望你不会是我的负担

i'm really tired of trying..

dark thursday

2010-04-15T17:13:00.003+08:00

till around morning den sleep
didnt feel like sleeping at all
had e feeling sth's going wrong
was so blue and moodless,
my heart was making fun of mi,
i could even hear my heart beats..
lie on bed, forget hw long i used to fall asleep
an auto wake up on 16:00..the sky was like usual
as i lai chuang-ing...it turns darker and darker
till i couldnt see anything..
wake up on light...
look outside window it's going to rain
soft thunder sounds..
on pc..online..fb...1st think i saw was..(....)
i'm seriously speechless...
and it's so dramatic,.the rain just fall heavily
my mind was empty..blank...
the thunder become louder and louder
sounds like e lion roar
so near...it's nv been so near before
usually i'll scare or scream...
but i'm totalli feeless..
the lightning is just right outside my window
i could even feel the shakes
told myself to be strong while i noe i can't
expected, tears drop..out of controls...

it's around 2 days ago i just told mum abt him
she asked mi to give up sooner or later
wells i noe i must, but i'm so nt ready..yet....
and she's coming back now..
i'm have to sorrow down my tears
and hope..it would nv come back

i dun need alcohol nor anything to numb myself
becos,..i'm alr numb
.
.
.
she's back,.
she walked under e freaking rain,
just to bring e food back for mi
she fell down somemore..
i noe she loves mi more than anyone do
i wonder how am i going to survive without her soon
i forced myself to eat
while crying inside my heart
my eyes are wet..i'm trying very hard not to let it drop
dun drop ..pls

wat am i doing~?!

2010-04-09T07:18:00.002+08:00

i always use *sth* to fill the vacuum inside my heart
but end up i'll still feel empty
can't i be independent abit more?
seriously i reflects on myself,
i realli can't be all alone
i'm nt a kid anymore,
i have to learn how to be an adult and,.
live alone...
i must..
but tell mi how
><
*haish*
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[i noe we are impossible
but it's impossible to forget him,too]

wed

2010-04-08T00:07:00.003+08:00

1st time go SSC walk walk
went eat den go daiso
like usual, buy alot things..lolz
damn random la
i saw one cute cherry keychain so i bought for shueting
den when i reach home suddenly wendi sms ask mi i like mickey is it
den i ask why she say she catching bearbear got a pair of mickey
LOL! funny la.. i bought some random stuff for some random person
den gt ppl more random than mi=.=V
stoopid karma-___-ZZz

Sunday

2010-04-05T00:17:00.002+08:00

just kinda missing him badly today out of sudden
whole day was so blue
was reading my own blog pass year's posts
wondering why i still can't stop thinking about him
*sigh*
and when i realize sth not funny-.-V
as i always day dream abt him
there's sth so "coincident" happened
tsk tsk
seriously speechless ..
gosh, why gt such thing one..
and why is god always trying to make "fun" of mi=/sobx
how i wish i could realli.....
haish
forget it
it was just a dream

[好想,.好想....]

good friday

2010-04-03T01:09:00.003+08:00

since today is good friday
went to a catholic church(st joseph) to have a look
wondering how it was like
wells it was very hot as every1 holding uber big candles=.=!
i nv see so many ppl surround a church before..lolz!
crowded till outside e church also gt ppl praying
hmmm maybe it's e onli church which
takes Jesus out from e cross and carry him around
-___-|| hmmmmm bwg
den had dinner at bugis den bus home le
tml is a busy and tiring day-.-V
good luck to mi
Zzz~

你知道（change from ’知道‘）

2010-03-18T13:37:00.003+08:00

他让我憔悴许多
他让我不知所措
他的一举一动我不停的对你说
你微笑倾听我说
你却越听越心痛
怎么我说的不是你
他比你多了什么
让我愿意耐心等候
你想知道他让我痴心是什么
你想知道他让我疯狂为什么
你知道做的和他非常不同
但是你却不在我的心中逗留
你想知道他哪里比你好很多
在我心中他和你有什么不同
我知道你比他付出的还多
可是你总换不了我的心动
他让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
他一举一动我的心被牵着走
他不经意的走过
我就把你给冷落
嫉妒把你给吞没
他比你多了什么
让我愿意耐心等候
你想知道他让我痴心是什么
你想知道他让我疯狂为什么
你知道做的和他非常不同
但是你却不在我的心中逗留
你想知道他哪里比你好很多
在我心中他和你有什么不同
我知道你比他付出的还多
可是你总换不了我的心动
你知道了他哪里比你好更多
在我心中你永远不可能会让我心动
我知道你比他付出的还多
可是你在我心中没有他多

omg u call that "love"?!

2010-03-16T08:09:00.003+08:00

after so many things happened
wat else u wan from mi?!!!
wtf i stil can do?!!
keep telling mi u can't live without mi
omg pls u are adult nt a kid
keep saying u realli love mi
omg so u think u make a person gone mad,
gone crazy, dead drunk, fking stress and pissed
u call that love?!!!
i think u dun even noe wat's e meaning or love&hate kid
come on la..
when can u wake up ur idea sia
so if u think this is call "love"
den i rather u "hate" mi better
to give mi peace=.=!
telling u true 道理 u dun wan listen
stil stubborn thinks that wat u been doing is right
den wat u wan mi to do sia!!!!
hundred of ways i used
thousand of excuse u gave
freak~~~u fking win ok,.
u win the biggest nightmare of my life..

this could be the 101th time i'm telling u
love can't be force
if u love mi pls stop irritates my life!
get away from mi!

women&men

2010-03-15T05:09:00.005+08:00

saw this in a drama show
kinda funny..lolz
here it it:
there are many different kinds of condition
but there's definitely no perfect women
generally,
pretty but can't cook
can cook but can't gentle
is gentle but doesnt have an opinion
has an opinion but isn't feminine
those who are feminine will spend money recklessly
those who dun spend, dun noe how to dress up
can dress up but can't trust
can trust u absolutely can't look at
conversely
men are same
those who are talented, are ugly
those that are hot, dun noe how to earn money
if they're rich, they dun care about family
those who care about family are useless
those who are not useless are not romantic
those who romantic, u can't depend on
those who are dependable must be a good-for-nothing
.
if u dun make an effort,
even if u have money,
u will be a stupid person kn used in e end,.
no matter how handsome u are,
if u dun use ur sincerity
u can onli be a 'ornamental vase'
.
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about fans:
the person who wait for u at the airport is a fan
the person who hides under ur blk is a psycho
some one who wants to kiss u is a fan
the person who wants to lick u is obsessed,.
u cannot ignore those crazy & obsessed ones
in case they may turn love into hate,and even commit suicide
but also can't use conventional reasoning
if they think that u're in love with them
and expect u to marry them, den u're doomed

seriously gone mad

2010-03-12T14:18:00.003+08:00

hey fker!
u win liao k
made mi crying just becos can't simply fking sleep properly
since u this fker keep fan-ing mi
wan find mi talk,
u dun wan sleep ppl wan sleep one ok!
u understand human language?
wan talk talk to ur own cock la fker
u didnt get my attention for hurting or killing urself
why not u just die instead!!!!
give mi peace can?!
if u got no life i got mine
stop trying to step into my life
get away from mi!!
can't u just leave mi alone?!
ur behavior realli damn childish and nonsense
stop pushing mi to e limit can?!!!

[gosh, why got such human on earth]

goodness sick

2010-03-11T07:04:00.003+08:00

pls la
wake up ur idea la
21 alr not 12 u noe
why stil so childish!
"why u dun even care when i cut myself"
omfg..stil gt face to ask why dun die instead
the more u do the more irritate i get
stop it la attention seeker..yeeer
stil wan my care?
please, human got 耐心 one ok
if u stil keep on doing these
u think i will care till tml?a year?a life?
SIAO!
i'm telling u i dun fking wan bother u at all
can u just freaking leave mi alone!?!
u say wan be my shadow
but i DUN need this fking shadow with mi!
留你在身边对我来讲只有坏处没好处
to mi u are onli a 傀儡
i'm not doing cherity
currently to u i might be e world
but to mi u are a wall
ROAR!
get lost!
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[i thank u if u realli love mi
pls leave mi and let mi go]
becos i can't love u AT ALL

fking piss off

2010-03-10T11:56:00.003+08:00

!@#$%
some ppl just making mi damn sick
tell u 100 over times i wun like u
stil doing childish and brainless things
seriously from the moment i "wake up"
i dun believe in anything u said AT ALL
everything u do just making mi 反胃
pls la, sometimes things which u do
alr over much or even fake
i nv say nt means i nv realize or dunno
sometimes it's just way too obvious la
..
watever u do i also wun change heart one
ya u noe my weak point
but it might work 1 time but not everytime
i didnt wanted to hurt u it's becos of guiltiness
cos i didnt wan e 悲剧 repeating again
but that does not means i will like or love u
so please stop making mi hate u!
love can't be forced!
i DUN love u and starting to DISLIKE u alr!
so pls stop it K!
YA! in my eyes&heart there's ONLY him!!!
nt any1 else! and u noe it freaking well!!
so stop making things turns ugly!
...
"a fren is better than nth"
i hope u keep ur words
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[ROAR!~]

ORD LO

2010-03-10T01:36:00.002+08:00

last exam
last day of school=]
say byebye to ite^^

wells..my life now is all about
.."waiting"..-_-!
waiting for poly result
waiting for jurong shipyard contract
waiting for...nth=D
LOL!
ya back to slacker life
i'm free but my brain is nt free
lolz can't stop thinking about things
gonna explode anytime=.=
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[stuck in no where,i'm no body]

feeless

2010-03-02T19:36:00.002+08:00

before i wake up
recieve ah chew's call
"finaly yr project tml last day,
pls hand in to mi by tml"
well well well...okieeeee
watever..
den wanted get up for artiste training alr
wtf?-.-! something wrong with my leg
and my hand, can't even hold my hp properly
gosh!!!! wat da hell!!!!!!!!
1st day of training lehx..T_T
and i can't be there
die larrrrrrrr
den i msg ting
ting ask mi call laoshi
den i call..my voice sound so "funny"
wells...expected...-5 marks=,(
okie..well done angela
havent even starts -5 marks alr..gg la
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after all
dunno why
suddenly feel so !@#$%^& ya very luan
my heart 七上八下
even had e thoughtx of giving up?
wat?! wat's wrong with mi
ya realli sth wrong
hikari and music is my dream
wake up ur idea mila><
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[u are e one whom kept mi going,
i can't go on without u,
time pls fly pls><..i need u]
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*I.M.M*

是我活该

2010-03-02T07:16:00.002+08:00

just home from the "talk" with him
....
i feel so heartless
i noe i hurt u badly
it's also hard to be so cold blood
the way u beg mi..u even ****down in front of mi
pulling mi back and dun let mi go till i fell down
grab my hand till numb
all those **** things u did i dun even wanna bother at all
is becos i dun worth u to do all those
..
we really have to stop ALL..full stop
i really can't be with someone i can't love
while my heart belongs to another
it's unfair
i noe u dun mind but i carex
..
sry i really can't
u ask mi dun leave u
but i just can't stay
but i will not leave u..as a close one=fren
whether u can take it or nt
it's up to u to decide now
我闯出来的祸，我会承担的
i deserved this shit

[[i'm a heart breaker]]

stop

2010-03-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

i really have to stop this shit i had been doing
it's just like a day dream
i felt like sudden awake from the "nightmare"
wat e hell was i doing?
wat was i thinking... i dun even noe who i was
i was lost.. didnt noe wat to do
and just carried on e mistake
deeper and deeper
and now i realize i'm so wrong
ya i have to face it now
the fact is i can't do it anymore
everything has to come to e end
so let's stop

-[[frozen]]-

cny

2010-02-15T22:35:00.001+08:00

due to laziness of mila
no post for cny=pPp
photos all in fb ^^

[[MisSing uUu]]

monday

2010-02-09T01:54:00.002+08:00

yaya came school fetch mi
den as just a suggestion i feel like going IMM
so went there walk walk...
eat le went daiso
lolz..as usual,.
if i go in daiso sure cannot control one
keep buying things=.=
den we make ourself out of daiso as fast as we can
LOL!..end up stil bought 17 items=.=zzz
den walk around...nth much to walk alr
went back yishun..walk north point..LOL
den chit chat under my blk
went home kinda earli..lolz

sat/sun

2010-02-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

today lesson earli
den after lesson follow laoshi go one event
slack sio..lolz...
den meet yaya jojo $ xiaodi under blk
cab down yaya's dashixiong there
sang 2 dual..jon tio saboh also..lolz!
..
den earli in e morning
jamming 9am-1pm den follow by 3pm-7pm
wtf=.= whole day without spirit
damn tired..nt feeling well too=/
waiting for ma back
hope tml can wake up for school=.=!

friday

2010-02-06T02:22:00.002+08:00

yaya came school fetch mi
change liao go meet kaze
do iphone things..
den go suntec walk walk
eat eat
went chinatown awhile
go home le=]

ma ar maaa

2010-02-04T02:09:00.002+08:00

12 plus alr mum stil havent reach home
call her nv pick up
call again she kap my phone
den after awhile she call mi
i ask her,
"where are u nw?",
"errr clark quay..why",.
"so late at clark quay do wat?",
"bring ur relative go there play",.
"wat time come home?",
"soon",.
"help mi dabao",
"ok coming back now le"...
.
around 2am
they are back..
i asking while eating,
"go clark quay do wat",
"play lor",.
"play wat la",
"walk walk lo",.
"huh?!",
"sing song",.
"sing song??!!",
"listen ppl sing song",.
"wat?!!!",
"aya e ladies no need money one de lor",.
"ladys night la!",
*silent*..
"they wanted stay there longer bt u call say wan dabao so come back le"
*silent*
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cool huh,
daughter quits clubbing
mum starts it
wtf is this man~!@#$%
now her turn to go out "play" le?
my turn to (.....)
Zzz

[[speechless]]

wed

2010-02-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

forced myself to school thou tired
after school go home change meet ya at north point
went cine find xavier, eat den shop at town
den went far east and bugis .
gosh, shop like mad..
i seriously have to stop it alr =.=! LOLz!

monday

2010-02-02T09:02:00.002+08:00

yay i nv go school again. lolz
wake up meet jon and xiaodi ..jon rent car
den go fetch yaya
went queenstown shopping
nth much to shop actualli
den send xiaodi to school 1st
went bugis shop..
den go fetch xiaodi from school
den go fetch small gal from work
den go eat at newton..den go marina slack
lolz..den send small gal home
den went sk slack awhile
den go eat prata
den go home=.=
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tired!!stil thinking whehter wanna go school=.=

random

2010-01-30T16:03:00.001+08:00

世界一直一直变地球不停的转动
在你的时空我从未退缩懦弱
只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔只想让你都拥有

我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄不停守候在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流
藏在无边无际小小宇宙爱你的我

你听见了吗我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明我为了你存在的意义

爱你的我不能停止脉搏
为了爱你奋斗就请你让我说出口

[[hear my heart, feel mi~]]

wed

2010-01-28T22:02:00.003+08:00

went town with ahya
walk here and there
saw his fren again and again..lolz
den go play pool..haha funny thingy
den meet my "ex gf" at far east
lolz!..den go back 925 slack
blablabla
i become more and more lazy to blog alr=.=Zzz

tues

2010-01-26T23:30:00.003+08:00

nv go school!
mila's sick sick sick
fluflu fever~~
=(((
stay at home whole day
play piano
haix..feel so sux now
so hard to pick up a new song
can't even find e cord somehow
....haish
where's my soul of music
when can i find it back

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lolz mummi bought crocodile tail from her workplace
and she tot i dun dare to eat..lolz!
wrong! yummi~=p

sun

2010-01-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

hardly wake up
didnt want to go out
cos not feeling so good
but dunno which idiot say if i nv go he dun wan go also
=.=!Zzz
den go prepare..mum nag nag nag
blablabla..
den took cab..jam den jamming..lolz
ya watever..LOL
after jam take photo blabla
den watch the "tooth fairy"
den blablabla
LOL..
yawn~~~
gonna sleep soon
tml need to do project
lalalala..
oyasumi~

Fri

2010-01-23T14:30:00.004+08:00

heavy rain in e morning
ejan acc mi walk to school
den pe lesson end earli
dabao go learning cove
ya! blast music
lying on e sofa..shiok
den lesson awhile onli
go home liao=.=
reach home online awhile
took a nap
wake up prepare meet ahya
den meet jimmy and another band member at ps
went eat..
den pei them go jamming
jimmy!gambatte on ur drum! Xp
den went for drink at ahya's fren pub
nv drink much=]
den his da shi xiong suddenly come ask mi
whether can sing with their singer "ni zui zhen gui"
since they today short of lady singer
den ok lo..but end up gt one customer wan sing
become mi sing "wu ding"=.=Zzz
den after tt i tot finish alr
but the singer ask mi sing one song alone?!
gosh!..stun=.=
end up i choose "xin bu liao qin" since there's no other lyrics
1st time sing with a guitar=]
wow his da shi xiong realli good sia
play so great la
1st part slow and soft,2nd part like jazz
cool!!! so shiok man!!!
so enjoy with e rhythm
this was e 1st time i sing on e pub stage
1st time no stage fright at all=]
..i ask ahya i sing ok nt=.=
he say this was e best "xin bu liao qin" he heard
ya i noe he's an wei-ing wo
LOL! but tks ya=]
den his fren tot i'm their vocal=.=!
nahx..den surprised that kaze said "hope so"
nahx i dun think i gt time for a band bahx=]
and den he ask i sing at where or which band
NAH! lolz! i sing in Hikari!=D

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den blablabla
blablabla and bla
lolz
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[ahya, pls dun give up urself
dun give up on hope
be more positive
no matter wat
life stil goes on=]

thurs

2010-01-21T23:15:00.003+08:00

met ahya at cityhall
went to see his guitar things and wat so ever
den "shop" abit went suntec for dinner
yup as wat my mum suggested=.="kuisin bo" again=D
ahya's treat Xp..
tks^@^V

Wed

2010-01-21T01:30:00.003+08:00

went for afternoon lesson
since morning can't wake up=.=
den went hikari do things
but actualli like just chilling there
lolz!...
i'm tired! but i just ate mac=(
wan to sleep but scare fatfat..Xp
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[jialat!there's a red red big pimple at e centre of my nose!=(((
realli become Mickey Mouse alr><>

tues

2010-01-20T02:21:00.005+08:00

after school meet little gf for lunch
den go trim eye brown, intro by her
nice one=D
den she go work..i go home online
blablabla..
den meet ah ya for dinner at 18chef
den watch "e spy next door"
nice show^^
i must catch it as i wun miss any show of cheng long=p
had a long talk with him..yea..
den meet gf at 925 after her work
and i'm home now
feel so not ok..and mum's nt home
i think i better take medi and go sleep
ya
nitex

Sat-Sun

2010-01-17T17:47:00.002+08:00

noon time wake up
finaly got enough sleep!
den practice singing
while uploading photo in fb(alot=.=!Zzz)
den prepare go down Hikari alr
kelvin didi joining in my class le
den since today running out of time
pearlyn join us also
1st time group..^-^V
ya=.=my voice sounds so diff
after leant e new skill from laoshi
can go up high tone easily sio..o.O!
xie xie coleman laoshi^^
den chitchat till 11plus
pearlyn lazy wan take cab home..lolz
reach home after awhile she say going prawning=.=
den 2plus go prawning
till morning..lolz!
reach home online awhile sleep le
2pm wake up
cook prawn..eat..yummi~
do project!!!
lolz wells..did it kinda fast..
tml let chew see can or not=.=
right after i finish my project
mum's home=D
hehe..
time for "cooking lesson" for her!lolz
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[[=i'm okie=]]

tues/wed/thurs/fri

2010-01-16T12:08:00.004+08:00

cos of tooooo tired so nv blog
since too many things happened
so i just short cut abit..lolz
.
tues:
morning went school..without spirit
event teacher ask mi wat happen
so i just walk around try not to let any1 see
den ejan sent mi home
weather was very hot but i said cold? dotx=.=
ya realli something wronged with mi..lolz
reach home online awhile
eve meet little gf go bishan eat with tianhao they all
den went for Avatar 3D ^^..
lolz! she booked couple seat somemore!=.=!
wells, 2nd time watch..and stil NICE!
after movie met jon and xiaodi for supper at 925
i was stone-ing..in e end stil decided wan go airport
den jianle came down wanted fetch mi there last min
but flight delayed again..
so jianle slack with us..lolz alot funny and lame things jon did=.=
wells..can tell tt e group was having fun=]..great
xiaodi going airport tgt with mi later on
so 4am went home sleep

wed:
8.30am wake up
xiaodi stil sleeping
den decided go alone
but around 9 plus he wake up le
10mins he under my blk alr=.= good good
den take 858 go..wow 20mins reach alr.
LOL!..didnt expect soooo fast=.=zzz
den walk around e airport
smk smk smk..smk machine..lolz
den around 12 saw him while walking around
he's checking in..
after check in .. pei his mum go eat
den photo taking..blablabla
den..time to say goodbye..~
wait till e airplane flied den bus to bishan
take my wallet from comfort cab office
(i lost it like 1 month ago?lolz! and they call)
den go amk cut hair with xiaodi
xiaodi say my hair look like when he just noe mi tt time=.=
den went Hikari pass things to laoshi
den take my bag Serene bought for mi=D
den meet little gf at amk
go k-box with tianhao they all
sing sing sing..lalala..
3 of them are from si lin..and they wan quit
den asking alot question abt Hikari
think they wan join as 1 group=] great
den cab home with xiaodi(from his gradma hs)

thurs-friday:
lifeskill project at GreenView Sec (with trybe)
for sec 1 camp
tired!! but enjoy e time being with e kids=]
(project photos uploading in FB)

Monday-super blue

2010-01-12T01:04:00.002+08:00

wake up in e morning
after mum gone for work
tears auto drop again
gosh i couldnt stop it at all
hug e bearbear
trying to cool down..
stil can't control my emotion
wells..planning to nt go school
force myself to sleep
couldnt..
cried til over tired den fell asleep
sleep till night time..gg=.=
wake up ....again-____-
wa..wat's wrong with mi?
why like tt ah
i trying nt to think alr
...
i tried to ren when mum's back
but stil there's tears in my eye
but i nv let it drop out
i'm trying so hard
but stil couldnt hold back
and didnt noe she more cute than mi
said sth more silly...lolz
....
den baby von talk to mi
she's so right..
tks alot Von=]
den after tt someone comfort mi also
wells ty ppl..=]
i'll be fine ..soon..i guess
just give mi some times ya?
maybe long,..maybe short
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[[my mind is in a mess now]]

Sun

2010-01-11T01:14:00.003+08:00

morning 8plus wake up
prepare..练声~
la laa laaa..
gosh=.=..die..no voice=.=Zzz
den no time alr
cab down hikari
after awhile derek reach
omg=.= laoshi was so stressed up
keep rushing and rushing
den mi and derek try sing
gosh! both of us puo ying-___-!
die la..sing 3 times onli 3rd time hai hao
no time alr><
laoshi bring us down e place
e weather so hot=/
den draw our own exam number
i got e last one=D
i tot tt was great..
LOL but i was so wrong!!-__-
seeing nonok cry 1st..den follow by wanxin
den i jing zhang all the way till e end=.=!
GG-ed
dunno why
when my turn i stand on e stage,
my hand and leg keep shaking><
now den i noe why ppl all say buang=(
i tried to control my voice
but surprisingly not tt bad=D
i can hit e notes sio=p
so happy^^...but e problem is..
i was still shaking like hell..LOL..nearly fall-_-
ending stil can joke with judger..lolz
coz he say my wei ying good...
den i say is natural dou ying..XD
...
wells after sing stil can shake=.=
..
hmmm
the result was good
shocked tt my mark was high
and, i'm in=D
..
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after everything
went for farewell dinner for M
....
den take photo here and there
blablabla
..
i was okie=.=
but i dunno why after everyone said goodbye
i suddenly couldnt control my emotion..O_O
ermmm..yea..
i tot after awhile will okay but......Zzz
after recieve e msg more....Zzz
...
ehhhz today "emo" day ah?-_-
why so many ppl cried..LOL
wells..
i'll be fine..i hope so=]

mummy buy de things=]

Sat

2010-01-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

nearly wake up late
rush down to Hikari
reach there onli DaXin was there=.=
den wait for everyone
all systems prepared
gooo~~
after the event
went dinner tgt
wanted to give ShiTat a surprise
for his 21 bd=]
...
when on e way home
alot ppl call again=.=
clubbing?!LOL!!quit le la! Xp
.....
i noe this post is short
lolz coz i'm VERY TIRED!!!=_-!Zzz
and tml gt artist test><
my throat stil pain pain=/
and since just now..ya fever=(((
good luck to mi tml=pPp

Friday

2010-01-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

i'm bored~~
so just post some random thinking.
lolz
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y some bitch's realli so damn bitch?=.=!!Zzz~
time to change and wake up le la..
bitching around will make urself feel great is it?-_-"
like that very fun? den go ahead=]..
it's very obvious no one arounds u treat u truly
(fren or bf) including mi
if u stil dun care wat others see about u,
den one word for u-"hopeless"
狗改不了吃屎
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i believe nan ting de words are good
u always noe how to say about ppl
although it's true too
but do u ever look at urself?
so just think about it urself=]
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whether this is good or bad
i'm just being damn random
lolz!!!!
roar!
bored...
tml and Sun gonna be busy
T_T

to Mum

2010-01-08T01:16:00.004+08:00

she call mi and say dabao for mi from her work place
ask mi wait for her back
wells..wanted to go out but ..aya lazy also
so wait lor...
when she back..waw..龙虾 again..O_O
this time de is e biggest one i guess=.=
den i told her next time dun dabao this le very exp
den she say i 缺营养-________-
.....
wells long time nv realli talk to her like tt alr
shock tt she found out i admire someone now
so i just aka aka tell her about tt person
she sounds like she kinda like him also
if last time she sure say, aya all guys bastard one la
she wun support mi to love anyone..
but this time..i was realli surprised tt she actualli supports mi
wells..this feeling is like..waw..yea~
...
eventhough many times i had angry with her over sth
but no matter wat she stil my mum
sry mum i always say u "fan" and attitudes u
.
i wun say face to face
but..
i love u mum
.
..
[[purple is her favourite colour=]]

she give mi de little angel

wednesday

2010-01-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

today is ladys nite!
and so many ppl ask mi go again=.=
of coz i'm NOT GOING
lolz...yeah!
end up meet little gf, fred and sunsun
go prawning=D
today's reasult nt tt great but ok la
den slack till 7am D=
den reach home prepare for school straight=D
wells..wasnt tt shag ..surprising..lolz
i was e 2nd to reach class! =p
den since 1st week nth to do
release earli=.=
went watson buy things spend $89=/
omg..but those are the things tt i realli needs=.=
back home online awhile
Zzz~~~
sleep til so deadly=.=
wells gt 2 phone calls i dun even realize at all
"65524525"who is this?pls kindly let mi noe tks=D

uncle fred camp firing..lolz

cute huh XD

lolz!dun worry this is nt by prawning=.=!

we did e same pose again=.=!

Sat

2010-01-03T08:07:00.002+08:00

just back home from power house(wendi bd)
since everyone gone missing more than 3 times
i was all alone..
den lucky my blother Ezra text mi
den i go dragon find him
cool! drink drank but nv drunk=.=!
LOL..haha!!!
omg!!!! GTR is realli AWESOME!!!
i dreamed to sit tt once in my life
and i just did it!!!
omfg!!!...lolz
ya tt was realli cooool~~~~
thank u blother!!!!^^v
we went for breakfast
and chat alot
wow..realli feels like blother and sista sio
hehex...so glad to have this blother^^
...
ehhhz..it's morning alr..
time for sleep=.=Zzz

2010

2010-01-02T05:51:00.002+08:00

new yr eve went marina see fireworks
with my little"gf"&"bf"..lolz..sounds funny but,ya=.=
wow..it was sooo nice...
den slack around there wait for jon come
since tired..and everywhere also pack
decided go amk mac...lolz
play poker=.=
i was so shag..shag til realli buay tahan
lolz..old alr=.=Zzz
...
reach home couldnt asleep eventhough i'm so tired
was thinking about sth ...
i realli dunno wat i wan
ya, becoz of rush decision again..
i hurt 2 persons who treats mi well at e same time
i'm sry...i'm realli nt ready for anything now
my mind is blank
..
maybe i bluffed myself tt i could forget him no matter wat
but i was sooo wronggg..
..
2010 le..
it's e time to make up my mind le i noe..
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but why is it so hard...
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那种在心里每时每刻会存在de人
在心里那最深最深de一个地方
那种独一无二，不可取代de感觉
在我心里，只要知道他是开心de
不管有没有和他在一起
我都回默默de守着他
直到有一天
他开始了另外一个刻骨铭心de恋情
然后....我就会默默离开

tuesday (bad day)

2009-12-30T06:11:00.002+08:00

feeling so upset the whole day
i think go out will be better
met little gf, xiaodi and jon for supper
i force myself to eat alot when i dun feel like eating at all
keep telling myself to stay strongggg
wells..at least with them i feel so much better
but when i'm home...
start over again..ZZzzz
...
[i thinks alot when i decide sth,
just becoz i take it seriously nt that i dun wan care..
so just DO NOT force mi when i'm STILL thinking..
i might make a wrong decision..
dun wanna regret in e end tgt...
if u realli love mi,
u should understand mi and just be there..]
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it happened to mi lot times
and i finaly shout it out this time!
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so wanna wait or nt..
it's up to u now
i can't force u, too...

28122009

2009-12-29T20:02:00.002+08:00

wake up wake up..
lolz went out today before e sunset
LOL...so long nv earli go out alr XD
went Marina wanted watch Avatar
but strange..monday so many ppl everywhere=.=!
den eat pizza alr think of where can watch
hmmm since town jam like hell=.=
went kallang there e shopping mall
wow..1st time been there..
didnt realize e ice-skating is just there
haha! i wan to go soon!!!!
miss ice-skating alot><
...
Avatar is a long but super nice show
it seems so real
and the most weird part is,.
i dreamed of that place abt one yr ago!
gosh!!! once but so clear...
the colour all that same..just some image diff
and it was in e sky too..omgomg
i was fking shocked...
...
after movie went slack since dunno wher to go
..
sunrise time den back=D
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[wat am i doing?
is this realli wat i wan?!
wat's wrong with mi??
stil dunno why]

Sat

2009-12-27T06:40:00.003+08:00

alot things happened tonight
i onli noe i'm fking stressed up now
i'm not drunk, surprisingly also
but i nt gonna say wat's happening here
=.=! lazy plus too luan
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[i'm realli enjoying my single life now!
sorriew!!! i'm nt ready for a new r/s i guess]

x-mas day

2009-12-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

phone keep ringing but i'm tired just wan sleep
so put silent..lol..wake up so many msg=.=!
nt planning to go out today=]
tired plus main reason my eye hurts
pain, red and zhong=.=!
wake up online
was chatting with jianle
i just told him i out of sudden feel like eating kfc=.=
but i nt going out so i go cook better
haha..just going to cook onli
he suddenly call mi, i nv pick up
den he msn mi say open door???
wtf i was like WAT?!..huh??
totalli lost and blur like hell=.=
didnt noe he use phone to online=.=zzz
gosh, i look so cuay la..
den i faster grab a jacket go open door
OMG! he's standing outside and with my kfc!=.=
den he say he going find fren around this area so went off le
yummiii~~~~
x-mas's kfc=D..NICE~
used to that when i was young...=)
so touched someone actualli sent it to my door=]
THANK YOU JIANLE!!!
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and
MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE!^-^V

xmas-eve

2009-12-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

hao bu rong yi wake up
rush prepare go meet eugene at 969 bus stop
go town tamp meet ppl den go simei eat
den cab to expo
gosh! superrrr alottttt ppllllll
think becoz of chc also cele there=.=zz
ok la quite fun
alot ppl recieve Christ tonight also
...
den cab down st james find huihui
it's nt so pack like wat i imagine=.=!
i think coz ppl tot is pack so nv come XD
her korkor crazy open 7 bottles=.=
den drink drank drunk..lolz everyone so high
met Regina!! gosh last time saw her is dunno how long ago
fun part is last last last yr i also cele x-mas with her!
this yr count down with her also! LOLz!=.=!
...
den find jianle ..den he sent mi home..(tks alot^^V)
[photo all in fb, lazy upload here=.=!]

Wednes

2009-12-24T05:15:00.002+08:00

nonsense childish with jeref online till 11am=.=
12 den falling asleep
slept till 7plus pm
online..wa biang
freaking alot ppl ask mi go ladys' night=.=!
DUN WAN DUN WAN I DUN WAN!!><
gosh! i just wan chill and relax =[
haha sound weird right ,.
1st time so many ppl jio but i dun wan to go=p
actualli main reason is becoz i'm going church tml
scare cannot tahan=.=!
so end up i decide slack at yishun with some frenx
drank so many water and ate so many food=.=zzz
HAHA! seriously gonna fat soon
...
enough of nonsenses,
time to be serious in e coming 2010=]

Tues

2009-12-23T06:28:00.003+08:00

wanted eat at 925 since i damn bored
den today is "Dong Zhi" so alot ppl eating
so went xin wang eat
den discuss wher to go
end up decide go safra sing 2 hours also shuang=.=
den sing finish liao back 925 eat again! LOL!
nowadays i keep eating i dunno why sia!
die la! gonna fat again soon!=.=Zzz
.

they say the biggest one is jon,
middle one is xiaodi, smallest one is pearl
and the santa claus is mi=.=!!Zzz

LOL she can't reach e smallest one
so funny XD..hahaz

omg! we did e same poses without telling each others AGAIN!!

i wondering if we were twins in e previous life=.=!

biao gao yinggg~~~~

super random!!

i think i should bring a camera out next outing=.=!

everytime use e lousy hp take i wan cry alr..T_T

Monday

2009-12-22T05:01:00.002+08:00

morning before i sleep,
teacher msg mi say need mi go down school
sign another form for jurong shipyard
den i stil like nt sleepy(around 8plus)
so just go down lo..
sign alr reach home around 9am
try to sleep..think 10 den asleep=.=zzz
den 7pm wake up
nth to do again!=.=Zzzz
den online do this and that
wan go out so ask xiaodi and jon
end up went nearest kpt eat since raining
den go mama shop buy ice-cream and things
planning to slack under blk
den just nice my little gf havent sleep
so ask her come down
slack near her place there
wow..gt more than 3 police car came in sia
they walking and running around
dunno wat happen sio..O_O
but they nv check us=.=Zzz
so kpo wanted to ask wat happen Xp
den we fooling this and that with singing songs
just like wat we usually do=.=!
and now i'm home and dunno wat to do agian!
LOL!

Sun

2009-12-21T04:59:00.003+08:00

afternoon heard mum bring relative home
and i stil half leg in my lala land
and till evening time..i heard she lock my room door
(tt means she's going out nt coming back)
i suddenly wake up go kitchen saw her
ya..she's going out alr..
she told mi she gt dabao food
and nt coming back tonight..expected
wells..after she go off
on laptop...online...
suddenly feel so empty
alone in e e empty house
ya feeling lonely?
out of sudden bahx..
maybe go out will be better
den wendi say wan meet ppl near my place so can meet
but i dun feel like meeting stranger..ya
end up just nice ivan call her say dylan wan ask both of us out
but it's actualli ivan moody..
den they go find wendi 1st den came yishun find mi
go chongpang eat, ivan wan go pub drink and watch soccer
but all pub close..so went to 100+kpt
order seafood eat again
haha..
since dylan tml gt work so finish soccer we go back le
...
[cheer up, ivan..it's fate=]
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知道没什么好伤心de，
可是为什么眼泪还是不停de流
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i..dun dare to think
dun dare to face it?
keep it inside also like tt
expressed it out even worse
so tell mi wat am i suppose to do?!!

[x-mas is coming and i'm down with sickness again=((]

Sat

2009-12-20T05:59:00.002+08:00

couldnt asleep last night
wake up prepare go Hikari
so tired!!...nearly took over stop in mrt
throat kinda pain pain
but surprising today stil can hit high tone
today sing "lan tian" by xiaohu laoshi
1st time use all zhen ying,
while kinda emo-ing at tt time
i think tt's e reason why i can hit it today
even before lesson i try also cannot=.=!zzz
i hope i can improve asap=D
gonna push myself alr=p
...
den..party time!=D
lol! today freaking lot of ppl everywher!
and i was so shagged=.=~~~
hope i can asleep tonight=/
..

[happy bd to Mac^^]

想寫首歌 by范安婷(超級星光大道6)

2009-12-18T02:58:00.001+08:00

眯着眼睛迎接早晨
站在镜子前面的我还是那老样子
一张旧照片和一夜的沉淀
让我觉得可以准备好一场小失恋
有些事情闷在心里
一直拖一直拖一直拖一直拖着下去
忍到星期天我们再见面
早已经没有想跟你和好的意愿
但是想找个方法来纪念
但是今天过后不能再怀念
想写首歌给你但找不到想你的声音
叫你也只剩背影
不相信你也不需要你的同情
最好能只能在回忆里
看见你看不见和你走在一起
让你给别人去珍惜

Monday

2009-12-15T05:13:00.002+08:00

meet my little gf go prawning
so long nv see her
and she's stil so small and cute Xp
hahax!!
den since her frenx gt sth on so we nv bbq today
den went bishan meet javier tianhao and her other frenx awhile
and since they going play lan=.=!
and we gt no wher to go liao!lolz
den xiaodi ask mi go study corner pei him study!lolz!!!
den jon also ask wher am i..david also nth better to do
so let us all bored ppl meet up!
yup so long nv meet tgt liao..HAHA
den discus wher to go=.=zzzzz
end up decide go esso buy drinks and food go dam
den talk cock..lame here and there
xu xu time! so went kpt
den dunno wher to go again=.=!
since it's late alr so just slack awhile den go back le=]
..
tml meeting gf again^^
sing!!!
lala~~~
gonna be crazy=.=!

Friday

2009-12-12T06:08:00.002+08:00

wake up prepare
wait for shit finish work
den he cab come yishun den cab to jurong=.=
attend jaslyn's wedding
ya.. finaly she settle down le
wells, happy for her too=]
hope she can be happy ever after bahx..
den left earli since daihan cui-ing us
den cab to mrt den go yck cab down tomson =.=!
wa biang..today like cab everywher=.=!Zzz
tot they wan go eat but end up went drink-.-!
HAHA! I NV DRINK!! =X
amazing right=p..hahax
lalalalala~
just very tired... wanna go kun alr
bluring all e way
[Zzzzzzzz~~~]

should i?

2009-12-11T02:24:00.002+08:00

nowadays, i feel God alot
ya dunno how to say..
just kinda gt e feeling
and thingy happened..
and i feel like going back to Him
ya maybe it's realli e time alr
i "ran" for so long le..now should go back le
and so out of sudden eugene hong add mi in fb
nv contact like 3-4 yrs alr=.=
wells..last time he ah beng den i very guai
now he say i become ah lian he very guai
LOL!..he ask mi go church on xmas..
yup maybe i should go bahx

sry!!!

2009-12-10T16:36:00.003+08:00

gosh!
i totalli dunno wat happen last night
till i saw all e msg and i realize i did alot stoopid stuff! T_T!!
omg!!!!!!! why sia
wat's wrong with mi><
i didnt wan to get drunk de , but end up....zzzzzz
wells..i onli rmb tt i msg him,
den i think after some reply den i "dead" alr=.=
.....
sry kelvin and wendi! i noe u 2 are very angry with mi
but i promise this would be e last time le!!
and thanks for took care of e stoopid mi!=P
i tried my best not to sad or drunk le,
if i nv try hard ,. this time sure much worse than last time
i'm sorry i just run off like this alone
i think coz i dun wan to let ppl see (.........)
....
but! i dunno why e hell i go call brynner=.=!
maybe onli to this best fren, i can be myself
ya ..should be...
sry to disturb u from ur sleep=p
but realli very touched tt u actualli came down to pei mi
and led mi fa xie awhile..thank Q~ ^^
.
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once again
SORRY ppl!
i seriously dunno wat i did last night after i drunk
wun happen le..no more le=]
ya, he's right.,it's better to suffer e pain now than drag
so..ya...it's over=]

bad thing and GOOD thing!=D

2009-12-08T16:13:00.003+08:00

bad thing:
earli in e morning,
awake by one sms-
"u better delete ur blog entry i tell u.
if nt things wont be nice.
u wan u can try."
waw! i'm SO SCARED!!!!
i'm telling u now!
u wan play hard, come i play with u!
i not e weak mi anymore!
i tell u!
i wun delete my blog nor anything becoz of u this madman!
i tot u cold just leave mi alone
but see!onli less than one month time
come and make problem again!
haix, why can't u just let mi go
and go on with each others life
.....

good things!:
when i back to sleep
around 4pm i saw school's calling
so i pick up,.
guess wat!?
I GOT MY SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!
waaaaaaaaa i'm sooooo happy!!!!!!!
jurong shipyard here i come!
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[seems like my prayer stil works^^
thank You! nw i noe tt this is realli Ur plan=]
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[quiting smking/
3 days nv smk le
give mi some times=]

to my freaking EX!

2009-12-08T02:24:00.003+08:00

screw it!
keep telling mi about wat others saying abt mi
do u think tt this can make mi feel regret or bad?!
dun dream la!
ask mi delete ur frenx on msn and all tt
stil ask mi delete my blog
for FCUK?!
there's NTH they can fking kpo abt!
i break up with u alr so no point kpo-ing ppl's life right!
i like who now is my problem not u!
i tahan u for so long alr now i finaly can be single!
who wan to be with a bomb which can explode anytime!?!
u ppl dunno anything so pls dun kpo!mind ur own business!!
so watever i wants to do now not urs or ur FREN's FKING problem!!!
listen! we are totalli finished!
dun come and interact my life anymore!NO MORE!
i tot we can stil be fren but fking impossible now!
so just...
GET AWAY FROM MI!

[whoever is e kpo-kia,.
i dun care who e hell are u
but pls stop kpo-ing ppl's daiji
care ur own business pls!=]

Monday bluex

2009-12-07T16:55:00.003+08:00

nv go school today..
thought very long whether wan to post not
but realli feeling damn fk up
going crazy alr
...let's see
wat if ur "good fren" interested in e person
whom u click/crushed or going to be with
and it's always,. means nt 1 or 2 times onli
wat will u do?
i would try to push e guy to her
and give up e guy for her
ya, guy onli wat.. i can find a better one
but if keep going like this am i kinda "dui bu qi" myself?
wells i noe tt in my heart there's onli one person now
but i just keep trying to let it go
but this is wat always happens to mi...
(.......) speechless
wat can i do!

Sunday

2009-12-06T17:10:00.001+08:00

this is to e person who i dun wish to hurt
...
wells as i seeing e msg u ask ur fren to send mi
i makes mi realize tt the feeling is totalli e same as
how i feel for e person who i like now
... the part when u say u alr noe it's impossible
but u just wanna let e feeling out so u feel better?
ya this part u are more yong gan than mi
but maybe becoz i'm a gal
i noe it's impossible too but i dun dare to tell him
since it's impossible so i guess there's no point telling
but ya, maybe keep everything inside is realli too hard to let it go
i dunno by when den i can make it
so i guess u are much stronger than mi
so go on man.. dun be so negative le
when ur fren tell mi tt e next outing afraid tt u wun be there
come on, dun take it so hard pls
u can even have e courage to tell mi ur feelx
why can't u just face it, get over it..
u can do it!=]
i just hope after some times, u will be fine,
and back with us again
no matter wat ppl say, just heck care.
be a man! =D

Friday

2009-12-04T20:59:00.002+08:00

today jurong shipyard scholarship interview
gosh! i'm e 1st one
and i was in e meeting room kn questioned abt 1 hr!
=.=!!ZZzzz...they ask soooo many weird weird de ques lo
i was so blur..
i just answer watever comes to my mind lo
lala...so stressed up=.=
den when Adib came back,
tell mi e interviewer says i'm nt bad for answering e ques
huh? diaox.. i tot i failed e interview again lor
wells... let god decide den=/
hmmmm...hope can get it this time, bt can't also LL=p
den wait wait wait for e rest to finish
is around 7.30pm!=.= lolz
den went north point eat kfc!=D
wa, today yishun like soooo many ppl sio=.=
crowded everywher=.=
waaa..now is 9pm and i just home=.=!
gg~

photox

2009-12-03T22:17:00.006+08:00

went bugis there drink with

nonok, kelvin, kazuya

wear till so GUAI go family dinner=.=!

Fire P.K-ing on e dance floor Xp

and i did it so fast!=D

like usual=.= must take out e stoopid candle

dun try miii!! XD.. cut cut cut

[ice-cream cake by wendi=.=!so hard to cut..lolz]

make a wishhhhhh~~

e ladies and e guys

lolz before going out, i made e white 1st but end up put e violet one=.=

Thurs

2009-12-03T15:58:00.003+08:00

finaly!! short term exam is over
gosh..the test paper was so "stranger" to mi=.=!
and everyone was so blurrrr dunno wat to do
i look at e paper, e paper look at mi..cheese~~
lolz!!!!...maybe my brain realli toooo long nv work
den suddenly!! i feelx hungry!=D
LOL!!...so i wan to eat!!!!haha
tt's why i start to hurry up my mind
wow..tt was cool
i out of sudden noe how to do!!
wooooot~~
den do doo dooo....
teacher pass by also say "WA!u noe hw2do ah!?"
i was like...=.=!"yeaa..i also didnt believe..lol"
den he was telling around tt i noe how to do[speechless]
den ppl all come to mi [expected]
i just keep on do and do..
and when i starting to think of e last question
den teacher say no need do last question coz we sure dunno?
wa lau..let mi try!!!!
HAHA! i'm just tt obstinate! *laugh* Xp
yeah!!! i did it lor!!!
den he keh siao say "wah, A star goes to u alr"
anyhow!=.=!!
[ehhz, my teacher is just like this..lolz]
...
finaly do finished!!!
i can go eat le!!!!
but canteen onli left damn FEW food=.=zzzz
nvm can eat happy alr =D
..
den walk home with hamie they all.
[TIRED le!]
tml stil gt interview! T_TV
good luck to mi, lolz
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.
hmmm,
dunno why
nowadays i...
kinda dunno how to control my ego
my temper always easily go up=/
yea, kinda angry with myself, too
><
[hope everything'll be fine]

Sat-Monday

2009-12-01T00:47:00.003+08:00

after hikari's event
go meet wendi n huihui with didi go rebel
den meet daihan and wilfred inside
drink drank drunk=.=!
lolz
i onli noe i keep drinking
wanting to make myself drunk
since my bd nv realli drunk?=.=lolz
ya finaly i doh
i onli rmb didi bring mi to riverside
den i keep crying and crying?=.=!
ya, was realli down
wanting to talk to laoshi
so went down hikari
ya, laoshi sleep alr of coz
feel so sorry to disturb him and ah gong
and didi was so worried
sry and tks alot for took care of e dead drunk mi=p
morning i couldnt take it so go home take medi
and den i gone into my long long sleep
till mum came back..i dunno wat medi she feed mi again=.=!
thus i over dose=[
monday morning den wake up, have to go for test
i was like walking without spirit=.=!
den noon time recieve laoshi de call
ya talked abt 40 mins
and i'm feeling realli better now=]
....yea
and have to tks4 e ppl who worried4 mi tt nite.
-[laoshi, kelvin didi, pearlyn gf, daughter celestine,
shueting and shitat]-
realli xiexie ni men, wo ai ni muen^-^V
...
and ya, last but not least
sry for e disturb to that "someone" in e middle of e nite
hope u do well in ur last paper=]
jiayoh
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i'll be fine
&
moving on=)))

Friday

2009-11-28T04:51:00.002+08:00

went for family dinner
wear till so guai =.=
den go meet kelvin didi and nonok they all
drink drank drunk
lolz...
den go bq meet wendi and celestine
fire they all came down awhile den go rebel le
den sian wanted go back le
saw DA BIAN!..lolz
i think he drank kinda alot alr
lolz...den join they guys
bd drinking again=.=!lolz
kinda enjoy e time with them^^
if can,.tml meet at rebel^^
..
gosh! have to wake up for Hikari event later
omg=.=! hope we can wake up on time
haha!

my bd night=]

2009-11-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

should be meeting huihui and wendi 1st go drink de
but stoopid wendi havent wake up=.=! lolz
so i wanted meet huihui go eat 1st
coz fire say he will reach around 10 plus
pearl reaching 11plus
kor and dasao also late...
when i in cab, fire call mi say he reach le?O_O
he came down straight from camp
wow, cool~~^^
it's special for mi.,=p
awww, so sweet
haha Xp *laugh laugh*
den they go rebel chop 1st
den meet le go huihui pub
sing, play, drink, fun=D
after tt korkor and dasao came
follow by wendi [finaly she woke up=.=]
den my little gf=D
cut e ice-cream cake(by wendi) alr awhile more go rebel le=]
1st time been lunar..lolz ok la
den after club go wendi house drink red wine
but end up play true or dare..O.O
and den... e guys all in lala land=.=!
9plus10 den go home..lolz
...
once again
tks alot for came down my bd^^
enjoyed alot with u guys;)

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[photo will update around 2 days later]
(but SOME photo can't be upload!=X)
lalalala
=pPp

Tues

2009-11-24T21:37:00.006+08:00

SO TIRED!!!!

just got home not long from lifeskill project

about helping out e sec school workshop

to talk about service learning

ya learnt alot while helping

gosh, nowadays e student like so smart sio

can't expect their ideas are so chim la

feeling so... "=.=Zzz........"

was kinda nervous lo,

lucky they ask mi things i stil can answer=X

and gt student call mi "cher" sio!!...hahax!

LOLz..

after e whole thing..acc classmates go eat

den around 9pm den home=/

rushing project report..[anyhow=p]

headache sia..

gosh i'm sick again!!=.=Zzz

havent realli recover now sick again.. !#$%

and stil have to cook for "dinner"

gosh..tiredness is killing mi right now

tml stil have to go school...to do e report with group

and after tt..

PARTY!!~~

haha...

can't wait to cele my 20 yrs OLD bd..Xp

omg i sure die..confirm drunk like wat they say..

lolz..good luck to mi=pPp

"key"

2009-11-20T00:51:00.003+08:00

抓好你手中那把key
一个成熟de人
不应该让别人来决定自己de行为
自己要学会
掌控心中de那把key
与其期待别人来给自己快乐
不如自己把快乐还有幸福
都带给别人
每个人都有一把key
只是我们往往
都把这把key给别人掌管了
不是吗？

Wed

2009-11-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

just back home
meet von at sengkang take things
and met yingying also
i think..this is e 1st day out when i became single life
and meets they both gals which gt bf
but ok la..stil feel alright since i realli xiang kai le
we 3 gals chit chat drink at one cc de cafe bar
lolz after like 2 bottle of beer they both keep talking and talking
haha..den nonsense here and there
k la kinda enjoy e time =]
..
when i'm back home
mum stil nt sleeping [waiting4mi?]lolz
and she smells my cig and say "u smk again!"
i was like...errrr..keep quiet=.=Zzz
give mi some times and i'm quiting ya?=]
..and she's now asking mi wanna go for holiday nt
i wanted..but...hmmmm dunno lehx
see how bahx=]
..
my mind is kinda empty yet messy=.=!
dunno how to say .. dotx
..
wells..tml will be a better day=]

my heart

remeber

不得不爱

All my fault...

Where's my love~

Cries from women

Love game

Y am I with u

It's all about my mind

Mrs Tay

wth=.=!

dun rely on any1 but urself

work work work

ex=/=no more frenx

以前一直藏在心里的话？

under your wings

we belongs to one anothers=]

sweet sweet ~

friday e 13th

e day before friday e 13th

today wat date ah?LOL!

"a little pain" in chinese=.=!

$=/=rich

Tues

love?

Monday morning

random-fashion?

thurs

final decision

tuesday(bored)

thurs

没那么简单

dark thursday

wat am i doing~?!

wed

Sunday

good friday

你知道（change from ’知道‘）

omg u call that "love"?!

women&men

seriously gone mad

goodness sick

fking piss off

ORD LO

feeless

是我活该

stop

cny

monday

sat/sun

friday

ma ar maaa

wed

monday

random

wed

tues

sun

Fri

thurs

Wed

tues

Sat-Sun

tues/wed/thurs/fri

Monday-super blue

Sun

Sat

Friday

to Mum

wednesday

Sat

2010

tuesday (bad day)

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Sat

x-mas day

xmas-eve

Wednes

Tues

Monday

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