Thursday..(blue)

wells..
e onli happy thing today was
i scored 1 for my team when class playing bb
....
other than this...
just like e same..
happy outside..moody inside
this feeling has gone about 1 yrs plus alr..
but why it come back again??
2 yrs back i gt this feeling before...:
think tt i'm sux,ppl around so fake,
life meaningless,no1 cares
and bla bla bla...
den tot of death...
wells...
after my o lvl english result ..
eventhough i didnt hope i will get it good or
didnt expect if i going poly or wateva
tt means i wun get disappointed when i gt it a F9 right
ya i'm sure it doesnt matter..
[since i'm good&well in this higher nitec course in ite now]
but why?
why am i thinking of suicide????
omg even myself also couldnt believe it so doesnt my frenx..
i gt tot whether i kn depression alr
gosh..this is scary
i can feel something is going wrong with mi..
just tt i dunno wat e hell it is
...........
[[help]]