Friday

my mood was down these few days
ya..out of sudden...
just can't think positive like usual
maybe coz of..
e things i seen,.in frenx..in family..in life..
e things tt happenx to mi..my fren..my family
e things..tt might happen to mi in e future..or wat so ever
i'm thinking negative alot nowadays..i'm nt e mi i noe
this feeling realli sux!
...
and my mum is hurting mi..
she's making mi from dissapointing to hopelessness
and why she's doing all this ..
just becoz of wat my dad did last time?
and she couldn't forgive him till now??
she's a christian and why she's nt showing e example to mi
do she noe tt all these might effects mi alot???!!
teacher Coleman is realli right...
parents realli do effects the child alot
haiiiiz...
i might just close my eye and dun think..dun care
but... :
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I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that s weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it s empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
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