tuesday (bad day)

feeling so upset the whole day
i think go out will be better
met little gf, xiaodi and jon for supper
i force myself to eat alot when i dun feel like eating at all
keep telling myself to stay strongggg
wells..at least with them i feel so much better
but when i'm home...
start over again..ZZzzz
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[i thinks alot when i decide sth,
just becoz i take it seriously nt that i dun wan care..
so just DO NOT force mi when i'm STILL thinking..
i might make a wrong decision..
dun wanna regret in e end tgt...
if u realli love mi,
u should understand mi and just be there..]
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it happened to mi lot times
and i finaly shout it out this time!
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so wanna wait or nt..
it's up to u now
i can't force u, too...